What Does Mania Look Like For Me

In the education system, 

BD stands for Behavior Disorder.

I laugh when I think about it.

Funny thing is, it fits for 

Bipolar Disorder.

Mood and behaviors are

the crazies of this disorder. 

This week I've found myself 

somewhat manic-

a little too loud, 

a little too ill,

a little too angry, 

talking a little too much, 

going a little too fast.

When I'm a little too much, 

I have to slow down, 

pace myself

and 

breathe.

It starts out as a wonderful event, 

like celebrating the pregnancy of my daughter

and the joy it brings-

the joy becomes silly, 

silly becomes giddy, 

giddy becomes wild, 

and wild becomes crazy.

Even getting ready to see my babies 

can bring on mania.

My highs are not too extreme, 

just a little out of control.

Being manic is not the problem with Bipolar Disorder II.

I'm not going to drive 100 mph or jump off a tall

building to prove I can fly.

However, I feel real pain for those who do.

In my case, the high

is often followed by an EXTREME low.

I've learned how to prepare myself for this.

I slow down.

I celebrate events,

I experience the joy to the fullest

 but I don't do something 

that I'll regret later-

like spending $200 at auction or junkin'

when my booth only netted $50.

Or planning a trip to Italy:)

Well, a girl can dream, right?

Okay, I'm pacing myself here.

Nashville now, Italy later?

Can't wait to see this little booger!

He's carrying his "tish."

He looks exactly like my baby boy did when he was 3!

Oh my, he melts my heart!

 And this little angel already has her daddy

and her mom

wrapped around her little finger. 

Isn't she a doll-baby?

Shhhhh. Don't tell I'm sharing.

This is our precious miracle-baby.

You think I'm not manically wild about this baby?

I AM, I AM, I AM!

Can you hear me scream!

Well, I will not apologize for being 

giddy about all my babies.

Happily Manic Today, 

Bonnie:)